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Guest blog: Mental Illness – We Can Help

My mother has seen multiple psychiatrists, counselors, and other mental-health professionals. She has seen the inside of more than one mental-health hospital, one jail, and one prison. Her history with serious mental illness goes back more than 20 years. But if she were to go to a hospital today, in urgent need of psychiatric intervention, she would most likely start from scratch with a team of professionals who have no idea what medications she takes, what she suffers from, or what she needs.

She might be medicated, stabilized, and after a few days, discharged into the care of a family barely able to care for her, even after decades of practice.

Every time her insurance company has made a change, a doctor moved, or the person she last saw wasn’t available, she has had to meet with someone new and start over.

She needs to take medications every day, but until recently, no professional had explained–in a way she understood–that she has a chronic illness and must take meds for the rest of her life, for the sake of herself and others.

Under intensive treatment, she usually has been paranoid and unwilling or unable to consent for caregivers to consult with family. So we have written letters explaining her history and behavior and mailed them to these professionals, hoping she would get better care–even though the recipients could never acknowledge receiving any communication from us.

When she went missing and lived in homeless shelters, we couldn’t find her. No one would answer our inquiries.

When she went to prison, I couldn’t visit because she was required to initiate a multi-step process of obtaining approval for each visitor–and it was much too difficult for her.

Although we suspected for a long time that she suffered from schizophrenia, it took 20 years for us to receive professional confirmation of her diagnosis, from a medical field that is reluctant to “label” people.

This is the reality of life for so many families like ours, trying to navigate a mental health care system that is badly broken. And there are so many ways the church can help.

My family has always been in the church. Dad was a pastor for 10 years. When schizophrenia came knocking, we were steeped in church life, yet the church was mostly silent on the reality of mental illness–and we got the message that we should be silent as well. This silence was isolating and cruel.

Yet our greatest moments of hope have come through encounters with individuals in the church who have made eye contact, visited Mom in prison, answered late-night phone calls to help her sort through her thoughts, showed up for small group when Dad cried every week. These are simple acts of love that reflect the heart of our creator, who knows far more than we do about how wretched we all are.

Like it or not, the church is the first place many turn in crisis. And fair or not, the church’s silence or rejection feels like rejection from God. We cannot keep turning away from the most vulnerable among us. It’s time to be part of the solution.

Amy SimpsonAmy Simpson is editor of Christianity Today’s Gifted for Leadership, a freelance writer, and author of Troubled Minds: Mental Illness and the Church’s Mission (InterVarsity Press). You can find her at www.AmySimpsonOnline.com  and on Twitter @aresimpson.

Midday blog: Receiving

I’ve never been very good at receiving.  Complements, gifts, and thanks are nice, but it’s hard for me to just receive them. I enjoy being the giver so much more – knowing I’ve helped someone, made the load a little lighter for them…and yes, it makes me feel good about myself.

Recently, we found ourselves with a large, unexpected bill with no way to pay it. Since my husband lost his job, we’ve struggled financially and this bill felt like another boulder on our shoulders. Close friends of ours suggested that we talk to our church.  I tentatively sent an email to our benevolence fund team. I struggled with feeling shame, failure, defeat, and fear.  Would they tell us what we know we deserve: “You made your bed and now you have to lie in it.”  I dreaded getting a response to my email – at times hoping they say no and other times praying they say yes.  Amazingly, after a grace-filled conversation with the benevolence fund team, we were given some money to pay our bill.  I’m now vacillating between waves of shame, relief, embarrassment, gratitude, tears, and laughter.

After this humbling and amazing generosity, I’ve been pondering receiving.  What does it look like to swim freely in the joy of receiving a gift of generosity?  I don’t deserve any of it.  But, what a beautiful, tangible, in-my-face demonstration of God’s grace and mercy toward me!  In this season, I feel like God is teaching me to just let go and bask in the love, care, generosity, and support of His people. And I’m beginning to wonder if it isn’t a kind of offense to the giver to not enjoy the gift?

What about you? Do you struggle with receiving?

Lori NeffLori Neff is the senior producer of Midday Connection and editor/contributor for Daily Seeds: From Women Who Walk in Faith and Tending the Soul (Moody Publishers). She grew up in a small town in Ohio, spending more time outside in nature than inside. Lori is a graduate of Moody Bible Institute. Her interests include art, humanitarian aid efforts, cooking, gardening, coffee, thinking, learning and spending time with her husband, John (and their three fiesty cats). For more information and her blog please visit Lori’s website.

Guest blog: Verbal and Emotional Abuse

Have you noticed how we stop seeing the smudges on our own walls but see them immediately in someone else’s house? It’s easier to spot the “dirt” in someone else’s home because our eyes haven’t grown accustomed to it. The same thing can happen with emotional and verbal abuse: we can spot it in other’s relationships but can miss it in our own because we’ve “gotten used to it.” We come to believe all relationships are like ours, that yelling, name-calling, cutting sarcasm, or the silent treatment are normal. Those behaviors aren’t normal. They are emotional and verbal abuse.

Emotional abuse is a consistent pattern of hurtful, humiliating, and condescending behavior. Examples include trying to control someone’s actions, making unreasonable demands, shaming, devaluing what is important to someone else, withdrawing love and attention, sulking, rolling eyes, and not caring how others feel and believing you are always right and superior.

Verbal abuse is a form of emotional abuse and defines people in a negative, pain-producing way. Examples include negative statements or insinuations telling you what, who, and how you are and what you think, feel, or want, such as “You are: like a child, clueless, too sensitive, lazy, trying to start a fight, overreacting, being dramatic, etc.” or “You think you’re always right, you’re better than everyone else,” or “You are confused, are never happy, aren’t sad, have nothing to cry about, don’t love me, want to hurt me on purpose, want me gone, etc.”

You cannot be emotionally intimate and safe with people who are consistently emotionally or verbally abusive. While they may not be physically violent, they are doing psychological violence to you, and their assaults on your heart will gradually erode your self-esteem, confidence, and identity. You are not causing the abuse, even if you are told “You make me act this way, I have to talk to you this way to get you to listen, etc.”

If reading this has been a wake-up call for you, don’t go back to sleep! Stop making excuses like “I’m used to it. That’s just how s/he is.” Emotional and verbal abuse is wrong. Making excuses for someone else’s sin enables the person to continue sinning. Educate yourself about emotional and verbal abuse so you can recognize it quickly. Join a support group or see a counselor so you can learn new, healthy ways of confronting abuse.

Jennifer DeglerJennifer Degler, Ph.D., is a licensed psychologist, life coach, and co-author of No More Christian Nice Girl. A frequent speaker at women’s events and marriage retreats, she also maintains a counseling practice in central Kentucky. She is a member of the American Association of Christian Counselors and the founder of CWIVES, an organization devoted to helping Christian wives enhance their sexuality (www.cwives.com). She has been interviewed by Women’s Day.Com, Moody Radio, and numerous other media outlets. Jennifer and her husband, Jeff, live in Lexington, Kentucky, with their two children. Visit her Web site at http://www.jenniferdegler.com.

Midday blog: How Important is it to Know Yourself?

David Benner is an author in the genre of spiritual formation books.

In his book Sacred Companions in a chapter called ‘Hospitatlity, Presence & Dialogue’ Benner talks about how important it is to know yourself.  Several of our past Midday guests have brought that concept to the table: Gordon and Gail MacDonald, Janet Davis, Leslie Vernick and Jennifer Degler, just to name a few.  However, it remains a controversial topic within the Christian community.

I offer this quote from David Benner and would love to see a good conversation ensue.  I did this recently on my Facebook page and I was surprised at the variety of thoughts and opinions on the topic.

Benner says, “Spirituality not grounded in humanness is no earthly good. Worse, it can actually be dangerous.”  Further down the page he says, “This draws our attention to the importance and interdependence of knowing both God and self. As argued by John Calvin in the opening pages of his Institutes of the Christian Religion, there is no deep knowing of God apart from a deep knowing of self and no deep knowing of self apart from a deep knowing of God. Meister Eckhart, the fourteenth century Christian mystic and theologian, said the same thing two centuries earlier. Knowing God and knowing self are both necessary for wholeness and holiness.

How tragic it is when a person invests all his or her energy in knowing God and none in genuinely knowing him or herself. And how terrifying when such a person is in a position of leadership or influence. Christian maturity demands that we know God and ourselves, recognizing that deep knowing of each supports deeper knowing of the other.”

What do you think?

Anita LustreaAnita Lustrea is a graduate of Moody Bible Institute and has worked for Moody Radio since 1984. She is a sought-after conference and retreat speaker and loves to connect with Midday Connection listeners face-to-face. Anita lives in the Chicago suburbs with her husband, Mike, and her son, John. To learn more about Anita, her speaking schedule and her blog, please visit her website.

Listener blog: Prayerful

Earlier this week we asked Midday Connection listeners to write short prayers for the concerns of the world.  Would you pray with us?

Our world, our country, and our leaders need You more now than ever Lord. I pray that ears will be opened to hear Your word, and hearts will be softened to receive it. (Whitney)

Please, Lord, be with all persecuted Christians around the world. (Vicki)

Lord I ask you to give all your loved children that are fighting drug and alcohol abuse the wisdom and knowledge to know they can over come this with your strength. Amen (Barbara)

Father I pray for every young girl in the world who is suffering alone and isolated because she’s been given in marriage as a child, too malnourished to bear a healthy baby, and now her body has been broken by obstetric fistula. Comfort her, provide healing for her, and save her soul, be her Heavenly Father. (Lori)

Father God, may the inhabitants of the world come to know the Truth and may the Truth set them free. (Sharon)

Help us to see YOU in everything, Lord, and to be grateful and faithful.  Amen. (Jen)

Dear Lord, please be with all those living in Syria, especially the children and those who are trying to flee the chaos. We ask for safety for those who bravely try to get supplies and help to them. (Florence)

Thank you, Father, that you determine the course of world events and direct the hearts of earthly rulers as you please. I pray that you will intervene where bad decisions have been made and disrupt evil plans so that the gospel can go forth and heal broken lives. (Donna)

I pray that we create communities that rise up around those who need it most to allow God’s love to been seen in actions not just in words. Let your light shine through us, even in our darkest times. (Tamara)

God, you put our country’s leaders in power for a reason. Help us to remember You are in control, no matter how crazy it gets. (Leila)

I pray that the blinders will come off of all those who do not know You, Lord, as Savior and King. (Cynthia)

Father, please give strength and courage to your children who are persecuted so severely! May their suffering and stand for you bring honor and glory to you and shame upon those who persecute them. (Jane)

I pray that we would start to value human life – from unborn babies to the elderly and infirm. We are Your creations and deserve to be treated with dignity and love. (Tonja)

What are you praying for today?

Midday blog: Grief

Well, I’ll just echo Josh’s blog of last week: You need community in grief. Oh yeah.

My grief just now is personal, so I won’t go into details. It wouldn’t be appropriate. And, no, it’s not about Dave and me.

Here’s the daily routine: I wake up in the morning and wonder about the weather, do I need an umbrella, did the sump pump work all night. And then, it softly creeps into my mind and heart, and the sadness and helplessness wash right in: the circumstances of our present grief.

Every morning.

This is going to be a long and difficult journey that I have little knowledge to know how to deal with. So here’s what‘s helped about 15%…my slather of soul-Neosporin, which is better than nothing right now.

We decided to tell our “stuff” to others. Proverbs 24:6 “…And in the multitude of counselors there is safety.” (ASV) We rolled out our confusion in waves to others, not everyone at once. First a big toe, then up to our knees, then a little deeper. We didn’t drown, so we slowly kept at it. We found people are pretty understanding and good hearted and non-judgmental.

We invested in getting wisdom from a counselor.  Oh yes, that one hour of, “You aren’t crazy,” goes a long way. And thank you email, texts and FB for helping us stay connected to supportive far-away others.

We received.  As I write this, I feel very thankful and grateful for those who seem to know what I need right now. Not just words, but strong hugs that say, “I am so with you right now and you can do this and I believe in you.”

In any given day I mostly feel utterly distracted and deeply sad and wonder, “How did I get here?” But I get it – God has shown His love to us anyway, with all of the above.  And the sump pump kept up this week. I’ll take that. I’ll take it all.

“Jonathan, David’s uncle, was a wise counselor to the king, a man of great insight…Hushai the Arkite was the king’s friend….” (I Chronicles 27:32, 33 NLT)

Melinda SchmidtMelinda Schmidt is a graduate of Moody Bible Institute and holds a Broadcasting/Bible degree from Calvary Bible College. She has served with Moody Radio since 1980 in various hosting capacities. Married with two young adult children, Melinda lives outside Chicago, loves reading, developing her creative interests and hopes to be a life-long learner. To learn more about Melinda, her speaking schedule and her blog please visit her website.

Listener blog: Freedom from Complaining

“Grandma, how come you never complain?”

I asked this question as a teenager. Even then I excelled at finding fault with the world around me and was amazed by my cheerful grandmother. I had watched her care for my grandfather, an invalid confined to a wheelchair. She pushed him or lifted him wherever he needed to go, always maintaining her positive, peaceful demeanor.

“If complaining did any good, I might try it,” she explained, “but since it doesn’t, why bother?”

Unlike my grandmother, I believed for many years that complaining could accomplish something. My habit was to pour out my heart full of woes to anyone who would listen. I saw grumbling as a release, like tears or laughter. If I could just get it out of my system, then I’d feel better.

But I’ve discovered as I’ve sought the Lord about the subject of complaining that it’s like scratching a bothersome itch. The more I do it, the worse I feel. Psalm 77:3 describes it this way: “I complained, and my spirit was overwhelmed.” KJV  And the less I whine about the negative aspects of my life, the more clearly I see the positives, which I tend to take for granted.

If I feel I must complain, I can take my complaints to God. He does not feel overburdened when I moan to Him. I can count on my Lord to listen objectively—and then to open my eyes to see from His perspective. He brings my past into focus as I recall the many times He has worked His best when my life was at its worst.

Instead of having a “Life—isn’t it terrible?” attitude, my goal is to more and more hold out to others the word of life, speaking about Jesus and the truths He brings.

As God continues to free me, I’m hoping someday my granddaughter will ask, “Grandma, how come you never complain?”

Elaine Creasman
Elaine Creasman is a wife, mother and grandmother.  She lives in Florida.

Midday blog: Walking Together

“Oh how good it is

On this journey we share

To rejoice with the happy

And weep with those who mourn.”

I fought back tears as I sang those words, surrounded by the congregation at my church. The words were taking on new meaning for me. I hadn’t received any emails, text messages, calls, no updates of any kind…I was fairly certain of what was coming.

My grandfather had been admitted to the hospital less than 48 hours earlier, and since that time I had received regular updates on how he was doing. Things did not look good, and the last updated I had received on Saturday said, “Not a lot is different.” At Christmas I had talked with my mom, we were wondering if my grandfather’s health had started a downhill slide, and now we had an answer, his healthiest days were behind him.

After the service, I talked with friends as if everything was normal, but I knew that things were not. I said goodbye to my friends, and as I was preparing to leave the church parking lot, I got the call. My mom was on the other end of the phone line; my grandfather had passed away earlier that morning. I cried there in my car. Then I texted my friends and told them that I had changed my mind; I would join them for lunch. I knew that while my inclination might be to go off by myself, I needed other people to walk alongside, and that I had people who I knew would walk alongside me during this time. At lunch, my closest friends protected me from the larger crowd of friends who were out eating lunch together. They took care of me, gave me hugs, and sat with me. A friend who had recently lost her grandfather gave me a hug and simply said, “I’m sorry friend.”

So why am I telling you all this? Because the words that start off this post are true. We need to be people who are there in both the good times and the bad. And we need those who will be with us in the good times and bad. God designed us to be a diverse, and yet whole community. I know that community is lacking for many people…but I would encourage you, that it is worth whatever the cost to build that community of fellow believers, for as the movie my friends and I went and saw that afternoon reminded us, “To love another person is to see the face of God.” We are God’s ambassadors, messengers, outworking in each other’s lives here on this earth.

So thank you. Thank you Aaron, Natalie, Jonathan, Kirsten, and David. Thank you for walking beside me, both then and now.

Josh Klos is a graduate of Moody Bible Institute with a degree in Radio Communications, he has served as the engineer for Midday Connection since 2010. He is also a part of the volunteer College & 20’s group staff at his church and enjoys spending time outside, as well as at libraries, bookstores and various coffee shops. He’s busy these days with graduate school, where he studying communication and culture.

To learn more about Josh and read his blog, please visit his website.

Listener blog: Courage

courage ritaOh, Dear Papa, me grow up?!   What does that really mean? Will I look like what everyone else thinks I should, will I be free to be a fun-loving, kid-loving, Jesus-loving gal?   Or am I really a quiet woman, always thinking up question after question, trying to find answers to all the ‘big’ questions?  Classical music or Bluegrass?  Writing books, or just reading them?  I believe…. if I keep my heart and mind focused on You…. knowing and believing that You will continue the work you started in me (Philippians 1:6 “being confident of this, that he who began a good work in you will carry it on to completion until the day of Christ Jesus.”  NIV) that You will!!  Could you please give me the courage to do so?!   Thank you, Papa!!! amen

Do you sometimes find it difficult to just be yourself? What fear is holding you back?

rita beedy

Rita Beedy is a wife, mother, grandma, rural mail carrier.

Midday blog: Planted

Recently, I was able to tell some of my story on Midday Connection. I talked about how I’d spent a bunch of my life feeling invisible – unimportant – unworthy of taking up space.

As God began working in this area of my life, I heard a Tom Petty on the radio and, while I’m not a big fan of his, one line of the song would literally bring me to tears: “Think of me what you will, I’ve got a little space to fill.”  I cried because I didn’t believe that… and I wanted to!  I wanted to feel worthy of the physical space I took up.

It’s been a long road for me as I combat the lies I’ve believed for so many years – and those old voices still like to pester me from time to time.  I’ve tried to incorporate reminders in my life to help me along the way.  I created a simple piece of art that I keep in my bathroom.  The background is full of lively, messy, bright colors and splashed across the front are the words: “You are definitely NOT invisible!  Did you act like you were today?”  Each day I have the opportunity to answer that question as I reflect on my day while brushing my teeth before heading to bed.

I also do yoga occasionally and I love the Mountain Pose.  It’s simple – just standing, really – but, a key to the pose is to fully feel your feet grounded on the floor, feel your legs solidly underneath you. I often imagine that pose when I feel shaky inside. I imagine myself internally doing the Mountain Pose as I breathe a prayer for courage and truth, reminding myself that I belong here – I am “allowed” to take up space and feel my feet planted on the floor.

What reminders do you have in your life of the work God in doing in you?

Lori NeffLori Neff is the senior producer of Midday Connection and editor/contributor for Daily Seeds: From Women Who Walk in Faith and Tending the Soul (Moody Publishers). She grew up in a small town in Ohio, spending more time outside in nature than inside. Lori is a graduate of Moody Bible Institute. Her interests include art, humanitarian aid efforts, cooking, gardening, coffee, thinking, learning and spending time with her husband, John (and their three fiesty cats). For more information and her blog please visit Lori’s website.

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