Listener blog: Holding My Father’s Hand
Today, we’re bringing you an “encore” blog from a Midday Connection listener…
In 1982, when my sister, Peggy disappeared, never to be seen again, I had questions; questions that never got answered. Eight years ago, I sat in her murder trial where I was to testify. I would be identifying her husband, the suspect, by pointing him out. I didn’t want to even look in that direction.
Led to a quiet room to wait my turn, I was thankful I was alone. While my flesh was scared to death, my spirit reached out to God and I began softly singing. My body might have been in that waiting room, but I saw myself in God’s throne room, sitting on his lap, singing to him. When my turn came, God took me by the hand and went with me.
And when I pointed across that courtroom, and identified her little boys in photographs of long ago, God steadied my shaking hands.
All of us experience hard times. Maybe you are sitting by a loved one’s bedside, watching as cancer strips him of his healthy cells. When we are overwhelmed we have to trust in what is true instead of how we feel.
I do not understand my life
it’s difficult for me,
some questions have no answers
at least that I can see
and yet, with every year I’ve grown,
there is a truth that God makes known
I do not have to understand,
but simply hold my Father’s hand.
Sometimes when trials come into our lives we scratch our finite heads, look up and ask “why?”
Our questions are often met with deafening silence. God wants us to trust him. To look past the raging waves and howling winds and focus on him.
We may not know what is around the corner, but we do know God will be there.
Anne Peterson is a poet, speaker and published author of 42 Bible studies with Christianity Today as well as the author of numerous articles. Anne’s poetry is sold through Christian Book stores throughout the United States and in 23 countries. Originally from Chicago, Anne resides in Peoria, Illinois with her husband of 36 years, Michael. If you see Anne smiling, it’s probably because she is thinking about her two grandsons, Jude and Charlie. To find out more information about Anne, go to www.annepeterson.com.